Thank You. Thank you for not calling. Thank you for not caring. Your fear of being a man and pick up the phone and let me know what's good may be exactly what I needed. Your insecurities, your indecisiveness, your inconsideration... may be the kick in the ass I was looking for. Thank You for yearning me for only as long as it took you to get close to me. I thought the Tom and Jerry went out of style with Filas ya'll! I thought we were grown ass folks. But. I ain't mad. That's why I say, thank you. This may be the wake up call I was waiting on. The wake up call that says, "Giiirl please!"

I need an awakening ya'll. I need to be inspired. I need to exhale... and, well, sexin just ain't cuttin it. Man... men just ain't cuttin it! There's gotta be something else, something more. I feel like I'm in a hole and the harder I try to dig out of it physically... the deeper I fall through. There's gotta be something more. Something deeper, something metaphysical. There's gotta be. I gotta find it. Cuz if not... I'm afraid.